Sunday, August 1, 2010

Biggest problem in my life

My due date is October 25th and we only have 2 months until we HAVE to be ready at any moment. The problem is that the apartment we are currently living in is crappy as hell. The ceiling is falling in, our room is too small for even me and him, and in the winter it's freezing in here even though we buy heaters. We have contacted our landlord and his attourney on various occasions and still nothing has been done. I obviously cannot bring a newborn here especially in the beginning of winter. So there has been talk about moving to a house with eddie's brother, sister, aunt, and her 3 kids and 2 grandkids. Here's my problem with this.... I feel that me and him are starting our own family so I don't feel comfortable with us raising a kid and dealing with our relationship in front of his whole family. Another thing is that I barely know his family so I wouldn't feel comfortable just moving with them and living in a house full of people I don't know or trust. If this was a temporary thing I would probably be ok with it but everyone is talking like they want it to be a permanent house for all of us. With that many people I doubt my child would be able to have his own room. It's stressing me out and the only solution I can come up with in my head is to just go my own way. But then when I think about it I don't know how Eddie would feel about it then I might be risking my relationship and I don't want my child going from house to house. I really don't know what to do.